Death Wei Leqing

 The first bye Weile Qing Lan of life and death world is in the heart of a summer after five years, the Blue Heart was wearing a blue jeans, hair into a ponytail, pigtails walking in the street a flash of a flash. At this point both sides of the street weeping willow decorate the entire city full of poetry. blue heart so free and I walked side by side. I have some silence, after all, has five years of life is not long nor short period of time, she gave me the original duty-bound to stay under an enduring impact, no one thought we met after a lapse of five years in the same city hh change, even though it was only fleeting moments. has revealed a no words to say helpless. know that they still have some tenderness after a lapse of five years, I always thought as early as five years ago, my feelings to die, is it all just fooling ourselves own? I never forget her no? I try to suppress their own inrush out of tears. you pass mm mud but not a name guy, what else can you have a noble feelings. So, I started to become cold, filled with casual look, baggy jacket will ride in the right shoulder, I know this is the most annoying moves her, she always think that this is no culture of performance. Five years ago, she said to me more than once. she finally said nothing, eyebrows a one Alice Alice, and his left hand from the jacket pocket took out a box of The lean to the left, I like to see her like a long time thinking about the events of the past. She started smoking, I think. who the changes are so fast! but we can not find a common topic, I am a stunned, do two years will be familiar to people familiar with nothing to say? I was speechless. past, such as lightning poured into the minds of h remembered, is also a summer, I attended the University of that city north of heat as if Men Guan, School of Journalism Few students on the playground of the figure, even the usually lively students of physical education was missing. News Department of Education is also downstairs in the two Kewutongshu listless listless, and not the spirit. my head dizzy and fatigued, the book is not look So they simply walk around the lake to the Yin child. It is inconceivable memory device, when I place in them when there is not even pay attention to what scenery, but also did not intend to in a few years After all the detail view again recalled again! It may be a sentimental Lake, the water was very open, the lake has trees and luxuriant hills, shade blocks out the sun. in such a season, we always loose all day,UGG boots clearance, not lazy spirit, this is a season of anxiety and uncertainty, living in an ivory tower early students felt restless on the pulse of an era. There are many senior students have not come to class, they shuttle in the streets all day long, the size inter-company and began his own destiny of Bo. watching them rush trance I figure I am also aware of a member of this army, is ah! is traversed more than 1,400 day and night, so why not rush? dangling my books, at the foot of gravel road newly paved very comfortable, green, spotless, quiet lake Yin child, quiet as the dead general. I picked up a stone and threw it hard to the lake, calm water what is broken, the ripple waves lap around the opening to the distance, a few ducks were also sudden sound startled quickly burrow into the reeds. calm it? like to know hit it off, she smiled, head slightly tilted to the left, holding Haruki Murakami's That day I knew I was deeply moved by something else. Yes ah! Why would I want to break the peace of this moment? h later I look at her I know she called the Blue Heart, a senior in hosted from a western small city, we began to talk Murakami, chat Roman. Roland, chat Hemingway, Gu Cheng, Hai Zi h and then in the fragrant gardenia exudes Yin sub lake walk, catch butterflies. I never had such a Feng Wan, I do not know what it means to me that afternoon and in the five years after the city in the far West I still can not forget that afternoon gardenia. ah! life gardenia. Blue Heart became my girlfriend . We do not run around units, production resumes, each day quietly with her in college, in the Yin sub lake walk, talk. I was surprised at her vast knowledge, and we even poetry, zhao, Liu Yong, and many girls , she sentimental, like those Chanchanmianmian lines. She laughed at me every day to get a book like it is done loading touch. it is intra-abdominal drip ink. for some time Yao has become our common topic. She low level that has a great influence on her life, her family is not wealthy families, the parents run out of school for their own efforts. I said, but at least you are in town, I can not match advantage with I still do from the village down! time college before graduation, pervasive fear. season is April, the day can not be far out of school, the aroma of gardenia spread out throughout the college to hh I am a graduate fine book filled with familiar or not familiar with each of the students of writing, May we all go smoothly. table you> were the students point of time again. Blue Heart are also some sad, she and a few to be good students took a photo, that a few students quietly wiping tears. That afternoon, the blue heart and fell my shoulder, and we began to look forward to the future, but sad, blue, look at the situation, said the heart talk about it, the family wanted her to return home in that city, and has been for her to find a job in television as a reporter. I said, You are the host school, in small cities can not play that role, is to stay in the north to the west of the city or reconsider? She did not say anything, I looked up at the sky, stars in the sky a fire burned brightly in the distance floated the Green Swallow singing group sang , then slowly raise the music touched my heart go far. West? prairie? my eyes suddenly flashed a picture of the screen: old sitting in a classroom of students in a group of ragged , but a both eyes wide open staring at the blackboard seriously. I thought a long time. I decided to return to the city with the blue heart, and I know true love only once. I see some blue heart, and I want to give her a surprise. that moonlight night, we sat holding hands Cong gardenia, I was filled with warm surge of happiness. I decided to tell the blue my heart, I imagine she will be glad I hung with both hands neck, said: . I'm waiting for her answer. Blue Heart, said: She said that Jiang Feng Jun, do not say I know you can Tingde Zhu, I have decided to take the good days, she has been doing that. I suddenly dizzy a lot and I am struggling with some desperation to ask no not possible? so go? I hope she said, Jiang Feng Jun, I lie to you, but she just looked at the distance of dark night sky. I know it is a foregone conclusion, is irrevocable, I have a headache The powerful, I said, blue, and then you take care of it! When I send you away. She began to cry about, his hands over his eyes, one vertical and one vertical shoulder. I did not say anything, Yin Teng son came across the lake The painful choice is still wandering, I go from here? friends son goes to tell me that he had made application to the western volunteers, asked me if I have any plans, I said, I go with you a piece of the west is my home. He was surprised to read my open mouth waiting for ages. I was surprised at my decision, how I would go west? Is it about the city. blue heart away, I rushed to the airport she said she had boarded the plane, I quietly standing in the open on the runway, tears blurring my eyes. I looked at the sky's plane was filled with despair. winter again, I have a small town in the west at a high school language teacher. and the child goes to teach in another county, hard have a meeting. I try to work, I teach the language and School history class became popular among students of the class. Many students are willing to listen to my class. Whether the leadership of the school or the students are full of admiration for me. but I work harder to prepare lessons, make teaching notes, and strive to make each section lessons lively and full of knowledge. I know that success comes from every hard-working, if I had allowed to get depressed, I might ruin their own. Therefore, I continue to work, work. I have no life bit by bit on the blue heart. Blue Heart no longer in touch with me, and she disappeared like air in my life. I will be after school, often wandering in the fields, walking in the rape fields in the western opening, respiratory the fresh air under the western sky. but in my heart, Yin sub-Lake, gardenia became my life forever can not erase the image, it is like ghostly haunts my dreams every bitter. people say that flowering Xie is no trace,bailey UGG boots, but my eyes always filled with the fragrance of gardenias open Meteors hh is the summer outside, the sun is still very white is very white. my heart as cold like a ice-cold. to forget the memories, the whole summer, I will own of all the savings they had equipped the first line of a self-tour went to Guizhou, I need to stay away from the crowd. that I did not Guaguo July and August, a beard, no reason to have hair, running around in the hole in the lives of homes, look at me like Dong song and dance h on a desert island drifting Robinson, his beard long and not pay attention to tricks. When September comes, when school starts I was carrying heavy bags back to the hostel. colleagues say you Why do we torture myself, I just smiled. Students are also curiously looked at me like I was an alien like. but still was taken in the past I did not say anything harsh, but it is kept at a distance. I could see the headmaster The absent-minded, actively talked to me, he was a bit uneasy, thought for a quite a while and said softly: Wang, the conditions here, if you think we're bitter, you go back, I know students like you, can you, after all, is the city people, your life should be in the city. I and the headmaster looked at each other. I said, the principal, you are worried that I would leave the children? Do not worry, I is put here as my home, I will adhere to my positions. headmaster shook his head, sighed away, I then felt an unspeakable loneliness. second summer, I received a blue heart in a letter sent from the United States, she said, have almost completed their studies and faint to tell me that an American student in the pursuit of her, had sent her roses a few times, but she hesitated, stay in the U.S. This may be a viable way, and asked how can I do? I did not wait to see After a crumpled letter still put into the trash, I said to myself, feasible way, then you know what? Goodbye, blue heart, we may really should not know, we missed a couple. I would no emotional sustenance, I know my feelings dead. but I must teach my students how to live, and how the feelings of confidence to face encounter, it is each person must face a class every day. I hypocritically patiently for them to instill a better life, I told them that people live every day is a special day. They are my good student, I should not let them know this so early in the cruel world. the arrival of another summer, I support education by a group of high school finally came to support education teacher. I have completed my mission to support education, I'm going, this is my fourth year to support education. take me to school when the teacher invited The best restaurant in the county town to eat. they do not speak, I'm drunk that night. I think, how life is so much choice on it! I'm used to every class, class, lesson preparation; used early every day to get up and running with the students, for exercise. but I'm going hh exactly is a Spring River Flows East. life. I began to love this challenging work. interviews, writing, passion to run every day on the road. occasionally I'll go to the pub quiet drink, and then fell into a deep sleep, full of longing to wait until the next day went to the next target. Liuniansishui, a past does not exist. 27-year-old in the spring, I have been a minor celebrity in this city, I have written many of the large manuscript became the focus of leadership every day. I'm addicted to writing, often also There are some reports in the literature and short stories published in the journal. working late every day in the newspaper before returning to single quarters. Still, I was like a rush the passer, I do not have a house in the city, no private cars. I thought I was a noble spirit, rich culture, who, but I will always be the edge of a city, I was banished by the spirit of the city. Sometimes I placed the old songs over and over again every day, attempting to make the substance of the poor numbness in the song I have not hh 25-year-old girlfriend, I stubbornly believe that love is a luxury for the money pile up, do not belong to me. but I finally started to think about many things. That day at work I found some of my colleagues on the desk出神地看着 me, I have some strange. She said: Why do not you chase me? I got a little suddenly looked at her, I have not thought about it, yes, which is before me is a ridiculous of the things. her a fashion, with the reality of city people thought the girl, though I more than her regular business, but I know she does not belong to me, I'm too lazy to think about. I do not know the question implied she suddenly what, until then one day I learned that when she has a boyfriend, but she was very good impression on me, and if I catch the words she would marry me. and I began that day does not matter to tease her, I put my heart wrapped up tight, pretending like a stone with no feelings, I know that in this case, no one can come into my heart. there is no mention of the table and on our feelings, as we work, work, desperately doing every major news, but we are not open about the feelings of the joke, even though the office is full of warmth, but we always like what separated. I do not care, life will always be a lot of regret, why do you care about it! I became the forgotten corner of the Wanderers. spring in the west of the city came a bit late, after a March, a change is possible as long as the weather snow goose feather filled the air, the whole world is wrapped in strong silver. Fortunately, such days are not too much. After April, the weather began to warm day by day, , on the North Mountain overlooking the entire city full of tall scaffolding in the city in a fiery and passionate. I suddenly felt I should do. That weekend I went to the city so-called better Rees Street, a cafe mm coffee shop, I thought of my heart and blue scenes spent here, I knew she liked things with a bitter taste as bitter as some people like to eat. I rarely use for such things, but is not rejected. or music, the dough, with a little taste of lullabies, sounded in every corner of the cafe. light in the dark, I just have to take the spoon in the cup mix her. sitting opposite me The girls look hazy, occasionally drifting of the moment, I know the contents of her eyes. This is a very beautiful little girl, I titter a cynical towards her shouting who? my whole heart. My heart seems to tremble at that moment. singing in the hall was uncertain, the softest part of my heart was touched, and I went over to the girl's table and sit down, just like long-lost friend. I said, is not seen you in a dream, she looked at me be given, since a long time silent sigh of gas. again misty eyes. I Pinza bitter taste of coffee, no probing the so-called all the girls . I know I am no matter what, it is difficult to knock the girl closed the door. That night, we did not say anything, leave the coffee shop, we have vending machines in the street to buy a lot of beer, and then uncertain in the back in the swing of her dorm hh I think I have a girlfriend again, although this story has just begun, everything was so careful, but I decided to go to the business of this love. looks pretty so weak, so Jiaoren heartache, as she lay in my arms, like a cat to like. Her parents were senior officials of the city, the father in the Provincial Development and Reform Commission, as deputy director of the mother Provincial Party School president. She is a daughter, the apple of their parents, but she is very young and naive, and never any trouble to their parents, but she finally let parents worry about, because her parents gave her daughter how to make body, she is so thin . I asked her views on some things, she can give people the unexpected answer, but I still adore her, she said, although I have some macho, but it is very human care, said, and then with very ease. I just laughed to smile, I think, in fact, life is full of coincidences, and sometimes there will be two parallel lines intersect. That day, her hand gently around my neck, cherry mouth moment kiss on my face. She is a special girl. summer, we began to plan to travel in Tibet, which is ideal for her, she said on TV that bit by bit to make her feel it was a mysterious and beautiful place, no matter how difficult the conditions have to be there. I promised her, from across southern Tibet Qamdo, to Lhasa, to the northern Tibet, this is a path full of danger. but we still go, I have not been Tibet, I am also looking forward to this trip, we have prepared a self-driving a white cheetah m off-road vehicles, smooth lines, running up fast like a whirlwind, both of us will be driving flat grassland in Qinghai Yushu , she drove the car was moved, sometimes tired, and just off the green grass to lie down in sleep. vehicles to enter the Nangqian County and the mountains of Tibet at the junction of the original forest, the beautiful scenery we suddenly felt like to heaven, before the car misty cloud a cloud of a group coming to us, distant clouds floating in the hillside, the most spectacular. But at last the path is difficult to go there, the scenery is getting better and better, as In paintings, in general, but always with the danger around us. This time I told my colleagues asked to go through, the path of the road situation, said that landslides, mudslides often have, and if the event is likely to be trapped There, half will get out ten days. Thus, to this place after I hold the steering wheel tightly, praying in his heart not to something, but looks pretty happy as a child-like, pointing from time to time to head stuck car outside the picture. her emotions to me, I am determined to throw away all your worries and enjoy her Feng Wan, down from the mountain, 4,000 meters above sea level by a sudden become a few hundred meters, a large contrast, but the climate is very wet, watching the foot of the Nu River is rough, down from the upper reaches of the river Pentium angry people to hear the voice of victims. This valley is very few people go often, and occasionally one or two of Tibetan nomads through. small Ai often curious to see the waves of a beat in the last hundred tons of heavy stone thrown straight Ji Zhang Viiv high waves, then I will gently shook her hand, we were facing a masterpiece of nature sigh. This trip we spent more than a month, traveled to most parts of Tibet, from the picturesque southern Tibet, the natural moat of the deserted road to the northern Tibet to see the thrill of climbing the world's brightest, and experience Ali Tibet mysterious hh bad environment where we run through your fingers, that blue sky, the pure sunlight, and the bronzed skin of the Tibetan nomads all have left a deep impression. We excited like a child standing in the Jokhang Temple Dianding general hh cheer about that year marriage end in the north of the world is Dishuichengbing, I saved up for several years hard money mortgage the house, looks pretty but also very happy, well-prepared as a bride and her pleasure. those days we take a stroll by the town almost all the shopping malls, supermarkets, and I bought a set of reveals a shiny gray suit, this may be my big boy has been the most expensive dress suit, looks pretty excited until I turn around . She said, you look like my past life destined to Prince Charming. I said, you just wait to meet you prince drove into the holy shop. Our relative and laugh. friends, I can notice to informed, we await the arrival of the warm days. But I do not know, then comes an even bigger blow to the head looks pretty, it makes me suddenly hit bottom. to everything we are ready to premarital examination, the Iverson was diagnosed with advanced cancer, because it was discovered too late, surgery has been unable to do. I know not much time. The next day, we started while you work,UGG shoes, I try to make her happy at home with her resignation, She is still a lazy cat, like to haunt me every day, we were playing house, playing robot, play games, I do not want her to stop and have time to think, I think we should rest During this time, live a happy heart. I finally realized that when a person's life is very fragile and sometimes a small wave came, it will be overturned, disappeared did not know she looks pretty hh condition, but I told her father, in this case I think we should work together with great love for her put up a sunny sky. looks pretty hair is beginning to take off a lot a lot, people began to thin out of shape, she finally realized what she became agitated, irritable, and sometimes kept on asking me over and over again: to answer her tears with a smile, . I can only quietly tears secretly gargling stomach. in front of her, I sometimes even trembling hands could not lift, Iverson has become all the hopes of my life. This is the second of my life girl the second time in my life when spring is coming when I fell out again into the abyss, and I have to leave me looks pretty, which is doomed? I asked myself. As the number of chemotherapy increases, we have less talk, she began to sleep all day, often in a daze, the people are thin mangled. I stay at her side all day, as long as she woke up again, I would hold her hand and she said a moment, she was struggling very pleased hh end of the winter is like for me, Chinese New Year everyone cheers at the arrival of Iverson's condition has also been very serious, the doctor recommended not to do chemotherapy, In addition to create more pain, no treatment necessary. discontinuation That looks pretty difficult to stretch a hand lying in bed, I leaned over in her ears, her tiny voice, barely audible. She said, I want you to once again hold her pale face floated a hint of blush. I gently hold her in his arms, her body is very light very light, my tears could not stop Iverson's arm suddenly wet . She looked up and quipped: shy, how a big man like a child? I just hold her too tightly, I'm afraid I let go she would leave me. That night I affectionately to recite looks pretty the poet Yu Kuang-chung's you're thousands of miles away closed lines / inch of a sub-hh looks pretty just listen, instant eyes overflowed the two crystal tears, dripping in the pillow. I put our favorite song was the house was filled with a sour, sad things, the dim light, I see some strange things looks pretty in the eyes shine. I think this is a sad season, everything seemed and I feel out of place. some days the sun shone warm Gadan town opposite the White Pagoda Temple, and I suddenly thought, wait for the process of death is a terrible thing, I'm staggering in some people mm and so the decision said, because it would equate cancer with death, that my terminally ill girlfriend. I am waiting for a miracle. I am also struggling with the pain, without love, support, and I do not know Her tortured soul is exposed to how much, love is sometimes a spiritual healing medicine. I hope all her calmly, but I want her to contradiction Iverson was born, that moment, a little life to the world, maybe she is like a beautiful little goldfish. the world is full of curiosity. However, it is a short 20 years God would let her alone to go that far The kingdom of heaven. impermanence of life is really ah! days of rebirth in the spring I finally lost my painful love, my tears dripping down off, I believe in AIDS children have been drunk, but this time drunk Ai h children never woke up I was the fish / bird you are / But for you / displacement of a stall / If I / time looking concerned / where will this a / dependents and not to be optimistic about love. This Which is not a laughing eyes of the dress has a moon, girls, and that love is depressed it hurts the girl? she slightly from the distant kingdom of heaven has come a word it? she would not know, sitting here innocently Ah Xiao deeply deeply worried about her and placed it over and over again for her song face. some time in the cool water of the night I Lisi Suo. another year of summer, blue heart from the United States beyond our shores, come back, bringing along with some of her melancholy mood. We are together and very friendly drinking, but never mentioned any of any of the past, this has no meaning for us, I think she is the same. I began to decadent, all day filling De his unconscious even I have the urge to want to own and Iverson told her story, in this western town, I have no more friends, let alone as my heart like a cat scratch. One afternoon, your eyes are dim, I sprayed a mouthful of alcohol to their complete released into the air, I had the pleasure of a relief, as the blue to see how my heart was, I not so, and then afterwards think, blue heart, and I may be doomed God wants us to be friends, or else, then she a blurred, how the evening will also cried another man's name too!. or later, I heard that she had a boyfriend in the United States, is a Chinese student, who is very rich, one year earlier than the blue heart State University of New Orleans study. but, ultimately, no results. that the boy went to New York after graduate school. Blue heart will follow back to the country. this relationship will become not the result of no end of drama. and I after the second meeting which has not seen her. I moved in, in a sunny day. Reese Street coffee shop a bit strange that the L-type counter filled with hair dyed a variety of young people, from their clothing can glimpse a trace of anxiety agitation life itself. sitting cafe old window, I wonder how I do on this place I remember so clearly all that looks pretty on my trance in the opposite of that in my table. a man came to me, I called her, you see my girlfriend? seen it? She was beautiful, she stared at me with surprise, followed behind him sounded . This is how I am? small bar in the future become a place of my destination, to that moment I realized that sometimes that is such a strange feeling for a man is the end, and for another person is the starting point, allowing a person to give up forever,Bailey UGG boots, you can teach another person grow. looks pretty go, a heaven in a rainbow in the morning and I followed her, and we are wandering in the wind again, hh second world when I woke up, my mind groggy, I know I went to another world, I feel my body is so light, floating in the air if the wind. but this is not hell, I am confused, not to say that people die all to hell to accept the second cycle of life ? I mm drifting alone in a young person in this world really into ghosts? However, it is indeed a strange world, chasing butterflies fluttering clouds, people happily working in the field, flying out the high-pitched melodious voice, the world has a spring arrived. I do not care, I began to think looks pretty, she'll be there? I think, ah want! head pains together. dim room, I sensed God say , because your love is, so we did not let you go to hell, but you came to the prison situation, you have to practice here, because you only know the feelings of interdependence comfort, do not know what to depend on the situation of, until you a thorough understanding of the true feelings, you can see the person you love. I upturned eyebrow, I will not know the feelings exactly? God said, God is great to let you know the feeling, and once had her, but sail with a hundred years of cultivation, the Millennium cultivation bed can sleep. you did not repair to the realm you want, you only penance. I said, respect the gods, I think I can practice to become the river ferry Lethal prison conditions people never cease to penance rather wait, I just want to see her often, use my arms wide to bring her safe and happy! on God in silence a moment, maybe you will get your request, but the prison affectionate love prison rules, to see your good luck. on God does not look at me, turned and drifted away! my heart faint and pain, strange, in this world, I have physical pain? I looked at my body It is a transparent body like the lotus. In the past I too would like to looks pretty, and so forget to ask yourself. However, the eyes always looks pretty smile, faces the prospect closing chin, looks pretty in this manner I memories is the need to spend some time out of the h that is what a happy days ah! have a loved one is often left with her, playing with her sunrise and sunset, a flower full moon playing on the poem. But life is so fragile, is simply unfair to her, not subordinated to the earth warm weather or cold ways of the world, even in the absence and relatives for a brief farewell, life was a stroke following the end of the King of Hell. When I went down to the day prison conditions, the God guide me to ...